Just want to remind you that you keep yourselves clean. Yeah? (Yes, Master.) I mean not outside only, but inside. Outside we can clean with water, but inside you must always remember your purpose, noble purpose, because nothing else is better.
(Master.) Everybody’s there? (Yes, Master.) OK. Good. Just a short talk. I took a few days off again. Not really, but it’s a normal procedure. (Yes, Master.) Not like a normal retreat like every other monk or nun does. They do it like three months in a row. But normally also break in between. Not break in a sense but of course, they also do other normal things. (Yes, Master.) Not too normal like usual, like they don’t go out for alms but inside they can walk around and all that. I can’t. So, if I do retreat, it’s really intensive. And the power is very, very strong.
OK. Just want to remind you that you keep yourselves clean. Yeah? (Yes, Master.) I mean not outside only, but inside. Outside we can clean with water, but inside you must always remember your purpose, noble purpose, because nothing else is better. Everything here is transient anyway. Even though we don’t realize it and we forget it, but it is transient. Every day goes fast, fast, fast. Don’t you think? (Yes, Master.) Yeah, you just wake up and it’s already a day’s end.
Here, this area is a very, very sacred area. Understand me? (Yes, Master.) The trees, the grasses, and everything, they are very alert. So, do not harm them whenever you don’t have to. (Yes, Master.) And also you have to keep your inside pure, humble, sincere. (Yes, Master.) As pure as you can of course. Any time you have some bad thought or some negative influence… Bad thought or bad thinking may not be yours. Might not be originated from you but immediately banish it. And recite the Holy Names, OK? (Yes, Master.) Or go and do something else. If it’s overwhelming then you do something else, or take a shower or something. Walk around and come back, exercise, or take a snack or something. But don’t snack on negative thoughts. It will come in your stomach. So, take a break. Something like that, OK? (Yes, Master.)
It’s not easy to stay around in this mountain. That’s what I want to remind you. Because if you are not pure and peaceful inside… Everyone has a little bit of maybe aggression in them, but aggression is different from violence, understand? (Yes, Master.) If anyone has high percentage of violence, they will sooner or later have to leave for some reason. Because we cannot cheat Heaven. Even the trees and the grasses and the plants, they all know your inside. (Wow.) Of course. You don’t know their inside, but they know your inside. They all have souls. And because they are immobile and they’ve done nothing wrong to anyone, they’re very pure. And a person or being who is pure at heart, can see through everything else. That’s just normal. (Yes, Master.) Normal and logical. Even stones have souls. You know that.
So, walk with respect, and also keep yourself clean inside. Outside also. Don’t let your brother have to breathe your garlic breath or whatever. If you happen to eat something that has the garlic inside... Sometimes kimchi tastes good but they put garlic and onion. It’s OK to eat, less. To eat but not like overdoing it. The less the better. And then go and rinse your mouth right away with some peppermint type of mouth rinse or wash your teeth. OK? (Yes, Master.) If you sweat too much, go and take a shower, or at least go and wipe yourself.
When I was younger… Well, I’m still young. Don’t make me feel like antique now, even though I am. When I was younger, when I just was a fresh nun, it was so easy for me to eat sesame, brown rice, and just water. I did that for three months, except one week – the first week, because I brought some fruits inside. But after the first week, there was no more fruit, and I didn’t go out anymore until three months ended. That was the normal monks’ summer retreat. But of course I don’t go out. I don’t have a lot of money and… Of course I could ask people to bring it to me. They’d be gladly to do, make offering to me, but I don’t want. So I take just sesame and brown rice, and eat that every day, every single day. Nothing else. Of course with salt. Salt; and I have a little soya sauce in the beginning. Later also, maybe no more left. Well, I cheat now and then, but of course I bless them when I eat and they’ll be happy. But still it doesn’t feel good to me, so I cheat only now and then. Actually, not now and then, just now I have some people here and just cook for me since… actually I cheat for three days only, up to now, including other retreats as well. So a lot of things they bought for me were rotten. I had to throw away, most of them. In the beginning I ate, but now I don’t want any of that. It was a retreat in the house; it was easier. But if I have to run around…
(Why do you run around, Master?) Not always, just that if I have to, I have to run around. Because I have to chase the treasure that I put somewhere else. (Yes, Master.) The treasure like “the multiplier.” That means if I get one spiritual merit point, then it multiplies into 100, 200, 1000, several hundred thousand. Got that? (Wow.) Otherwise I think I will lose for sure because I don’t have time. (Yes, Master.)
Even I wanted to watch movies with you, it’s been laying here all this time. I never watch any. We had no chance. So, no need. If you really want to have a break and watch movies, do it yourself. (Yes, Master.) Watch it safe, see some spiritual film like “Kundun,” whatever, Dalai Lama film. Or the film of Xuan Zang, the Tripitaka Master went to India, with the monkey. I mean the real one. There is a film made in China – the whole life story of this Master, until he got the Sutra and came back. That one is a long, long, very long series. But if you want, you watch something like that, or the films that we selected for our Supreme Master Television, family. (Yes, Master.) Just don’t risk other films like… Every time when I didn’t choose the film, they chose it, then it’s all lousy, remember? (Yes, Master.) But don’t need to watch. If you need to, you watch. If not, don’t have to, better not. (Yes, Master.) Everything costs something in this world.
I go and check my diary. One second. One second. I found out in retreat many things that I did not find out before, had no time to check. But something, I cannot always tell you everything, it’s just for me. Even good things I cannot disclose to you, about the world and world peace and world vegan stuff. I can’t. OK, where are they? I wrote it here and there. One second. Do you have time, yeah? (Yes, Master.)
Just remember, I wanted to talk to you today because of that, because of the purity of the mind. Of course, now and then we are infected by other people, by their bad vibe in the air, but have to always immediately clean yourself with the Holy Names. (Yes, Master.) OK. I think I saw it somewhere. Oh, my glasses. Where is it?
If I eat normal food, then I would lose like “0.” with 63 zeros at the end and “3”, yeah? Not like “0.3” but “0.” and then “00000….” and then “3”. You got that? (Yes, Master.) If I cook for myself, then it’s less of course. If somebody else cook for me, then I have to pay more. Because that person takes payment. The one who cooks for me, takes payment, automatically. There’s nothing I can do about it. But sometimes I let them cook because I’m just too tired or too busy. Like whenever I come back out of retreat, for example, then I cheat. I let one of the sisters cook something, but it’s only once a day. Like one soup and one other dish.
I have a lot of reserve but if I… For example… That’s why I save as much as I can. It’s not because of that, but… Of course, it’s like money – whatever you save, you can give, yeah? (Yes, Master.) Spend anywhere else you like. Mostly I don’t spend for myself. What for? I already have. So save it to send for somebody else but sometimes my body doesn’t let.
For example, if I just roam around in car, with one or two disciples and dogs, and we pay restaurants to eat every day. Then I don’t lose a lot. That is without Supreme Master TV and without disciples, without seeing them. Then I lose only “0.” “107 zeros” and then “3”. But if I have TV, even on the road, working while I’m running, then I will lose more. It becomes only “93 zeros 4.” You understand what I’m saying? (Yes, Master.) Before, the zeros is more, that means I lose less, yeah? The zeros after the “0.” And if I see my disciples by the way, then the zeros become only “63 zeros 4.” Do you understand what I mean? (Yes, Master.) You write it down like “0.” and then “0000…” 63 times of “zero” and then “4”. Got that? OK. That’s still not much. That, even if I pay them. But if I have Supreme Master TV as well, then the zeros become 19 only. Right now, every day, the way it is right now, with Supreme Master TV, I lose “0.” and “76 zeros” at the end. We don’t talk about number “3” and number “4” at the very end; it is not much anymore. But it is a lot for me. Because my treasure is big. So “0.” something, that’s a lot, OK? (Yes, Master.) That is gazillions of gazillions of gazillions of gazillions of lalalalala. You understand that? (Yes, Master.) It’s not like 0.1 dollars. It’s not like that. If I eat normal food, then I lose “0.” “63 zeros”. Do you understand the system now? (Yes, Master.) If I see disciples, even only once a month, and spend time with them, I lose a lot. I’m not going to read anymore. I am tired. I’m counting zeros daily. If I truly count, then I don’t want to do anything anymore. Got that? (Yes, Master.) Because I’m also sick sometimes of being sick.
If I spend time with my dogs, I lose less. If I spend time with people, I lose more. Can you believe that? Like for example, with the dogs, only 0. “73 zeros”. With people, then 0. “57 zeros”.
In average, if I don’t do anything at all, I would gain even eight million and half, more or less, per month. (Wow.) If I don’t do anything, OK? If I don’t even meditate. And I need at least 7 million 300 something to survive per month. But if I go around and see disciples like that, then I lose. Every month, if I see disciples, once a month only, a few hours only. (Yes, Master.) Not initiation, or nothing yet. Just see disciples once a month. Once a month! And Supreme Master TV as right now. Then averagely I would lose… Oh sorry, then I would have only 5 million 300 something left. That means I’m short of almost 2 million to survive. You understand that? (Yes, Master.) Then I got sick or dead, (Wow.) depending on how short, how short of the SMP (Spiritual Merit Point), OK? Right now, if I use up my reserve, counting roughly, doing all Supreme Master TV, and giving nine or ten initiation time, then it’s all run out, whatever reserve I have. Got that? (Yes, Master.) If I don’t do anything to reimburse it, and if I have no chance, no time to meditate, then I’m doomed, then bye-bye Ching Hai. That’s why in the past, I was very sick, often. Sometimes 90% dead. (Wow.) And then I still survive afterwards. There’re so many things in detail. I cannot tell you. It’s just that…
So it’s not like the more we have from the world, the better we are. It’s not true, OK? (Yes, Master.) The less we have the better. But I still can afford some good meal, now and then. Some tasty meal now and then. They cook for me, once a day, just one soup and one dish.
OK, anyway, and by the way, people think that if they are initiated, then the Master takes all the karma away, that’s fine but then they can do anything they want because the Master will take care of them anyway; it’s not true. (Yes, Master.) So, karma is karma. Fairness in this system, yeah? (Yes.) We cannot go… we cannot blame the Maya for being not good, and we ourselves are not good. Got that? (Yes, Master.) Just like in this system, if somebody wounds you and then you go and find him and wound him again instead, if the police catch you at that time, you go to jail, yeah? (Yes, Master.) And you cannot say, “Oh, last time he wounded me. He injured me. Now I injure him again.” Last time they didn’t see you. It doesn’t matter. Even then, even if they believe you, they still deduct the sentence but you still have to go to jail accordingly, yeah? (Yes, Master.) Or you have to spend some time in the court case or in the jail until you clear your name. So similar, even if you’re working here for Supreme Master TV or anywhere else, you must still keep your mind pure and clean. (Yes, Master.)